When I die…

Being in the presence of the lord is where my ultimate freedom resides.

I am a vessel, here on the earth to do what My God Daddy has in his will for me to do.

When I was 18-25, I chose the life I wanted to live. And I'm glad I didn't choose horrible paths.

HOWEVER, I can't help but to think the devil was happy when I was doing wrong.

And I'm certain he was punishing me for choosing to do right. I was changing.

I said I was making a change to myself once and for all. And then I made a power point for myself to cover all the areas I was incorporating this change in.

• Physically

• Mentally

• Emotionally

• Spiritually

• Financially

I was considered to be very successful from those ages. And I was pretty well rounded before. After the age of 25, I quit my career ($58k+) to focus on my mental health.

by the age of 27, I quit everything I've ever known to focus on my mental health. And now/ for some time, I find myself quitting a few more things, just to make sure I am right with Christ.

Christ is my permanent home. This earth is my temporary place.

#SpiritualWarfare was on my ass for the past 3 whole years. Not to mention the generational curses I vowed to break when I was a child. I remember now.

I was writing letters to Petter PopOff who was a pastor that I seen on t.v. I was sending him money for offerings and ordering "holy oil" to rebuke any devils in my house. My mom didn't know this. And I was putting oil on her room door. I was 17 years old. My grandmother was sick in my living room and I was praying to god for many things. There was dark spirits around my bed at night. I would see the figures in my room and suffer from sleep paralysis. This happened a few times A lot!

Not Satan tried to keep me away from Christ so hard. Lol Boyyyyy BYE ✌🏽

No matter what I look like, even No Matter How I act, Jesus is my savior. I follow and surrender to him completely. Even the times when I'm acting out, I deem and feel that Jehovah accepts me because I am able to understand where am I literally mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically, and shoot even financially.

You know people mad when they broke! I am being molding by My God Daddy everyday. And being taught to be ok, and HAPPY with no physical thing in this world.

All of my parents are dead. To me they are in the spirit freely... with the cage of their body trapped in the sin of death.

Jesus is my Savior. And my Parents Savior too. One day he will release their physical body back to them. And this time they will have more understanding of what to do with in their bodies to live a life of pure happiness. They are already the happiest that I could ever known them to be.

For me, my God Daddy is Jehovah God. I am happy now before I die, because every prayer that my mother , father , grandmothers, & grandpas have prayed. I will receive IN HONOR every blessing out loud & in disguise.

Satan knew that I would be the one to Unlock every word of my Fathers. In this physical world.

And if I'm not here physically, to see the physical manifestation of socially deemed the most successful works of God, I am already and still HAPPY because I already knew what my works were created for.

There is power in my body. I release power with my tongue, with my fingers, with my thoughts, with my feelings, and with my presence.

I can not be stopped.

With a mentality like mine, I could take over HELL. If I wanted to.

But my Daddy and my Angels pulls me back. I bow to my father no matter how mad or sad. No weapon formed against me shall prosper. In the Bible it says, the tongue is like a double edged sword. No words sent to me as a curse can penetrate me unless they are from God himself.

Ok Daddy, I'll turn the other cheek. Again , I surrender myself to Christ. & I pray for the Holy Spirit to bless every fine action I take on this journey of physical life.

I make the best of earth in every way. And when it's business... IT'S BUSINESS!

When I die, I'm not dead. I'm only physically bounded until Jesus comes back and complete the resurrection or new birth of me and my family. We will be reunited with no sickness , no financial difficulties, no stress at all, and no more deaths.

So today my God Daddy is teaching me how to live as such. Why wait to be happy when happy lives inside of me? I'm already me now. Before. And After. When times are dark, I am only in observations. Jehovah, God Daddy is my light. He lights up my path and all I do is follow it.

I was counted out, I said I could show them better than I could tell them. I can't think about that right now I'm too busy following this light until even those thoughts fade away into the distance.

I'm not here to show anybody nothing. I'm here to be and do. Im here to follow Christ, and where he's going. Anybody who sees me would want to go too.

I was teaching my mother some things about Jehovah, my Daddy. And it took time, but she became accepting to what he has taught and told me.

Now she is with him. And she's telling and showing me everything I could know!

When I die, no matter how I die. I have endure many pain connected with earth, how I die won't matter. Nothing with be an everlasting hurt. Only temporary like the rest.

I can only die once or however many times God Wills it. So, I will embrace my moment when the time comes because how cool would it be in a way to die & see if I transcend?!

Once.. (or twice.... plus many thoughts & ideations ) I've tried to speed up the process. That was all apart of the plan. The devil thought he had me. But God knew that's when my other clock will begin.

We been had our foot on they neck. It's all God. But I say we because we have a choice. Free will. I had been making choices all this time to align myself with Jehovah God, & Jesus Christ, With In. Thank you Holy Spirit. I love you.

Even when I have sinned, I'm still chosen. So really it's all been sort of God's Plan.

When I die, I am happy. & anybody and everybody who knows me should be too. One day I will hurt sooooo many people but that's what the devil wants to do.

I am so free in my mind with Christ. Death will not hurt me, it will only grant me the most freedom I could have ever experience.

This is not a suicide note. These are true words. Coming from a person who have lost all parents, first marriage, dogs in death, friends, and family members who left me when I needed them....

I have spend too much of my time, burdened by pain from others. I never want to hurt anyone or cause anyone any tears.

Whenever they hurt me, I hurt myself because it must have been because of me.

The last time I hurt myself , I actually knocked sense back into me! I hit my head as hard as I could hoping I would just fall asleep. In a comma. My Ex Husband could never hear me for me... and whenever I say Never, it made him mad. Guess what.... he Still Never heard me for ME! I wanted him to feel my hurt so bad ... but people have to physically see you hurt for them to take you seriously... (my old way of thinking) .

So I banged my head so hard on the floor, hoping I'll just wake up later. And also hoping that while I'm sleep, I will actually be with my parents or with Jesus or Jehovah God!

I woke myself up the most I could be. And will forever from these days forever get on my knees to my Savior, my Lord, my Daddy, my God!

He protects my mind, and my body from even me.

No other anything is needed because every void in my body is filled and I am whole.

I saw what temptation does to my physical self. And I thank my father for the revelation. All of them.

Thank you Jehovah God Daddy for EVERYTHING! Life is everything. Thank you Again for everythinggggggg!!!!! On My Momma, On My Daddy, On My Grandma , On My Other Grandma, On My Grandpa and My Other Grandpa.

I made a change for myself once and for all. On alllll of them and everything else I love , I'm not changing for just me.

This is for everybody I know and for everybody who knows me. Even who ever I don't know you personally, I do know you emotionally and spiritually, we are connected.

I'm sooooooooo Mf Happy. Inside. Inside. Inside. And when I die, I'll just be the same inside and won't have to worry about my outsides or anything else outside of me. I will be the me inside , Everywhere in this word. So where you go, you can know for sure I'm there.

Come on now, you gone know me when ever you see me!!!!!

Thank you so much for loving me. Thank you for ever allowing me to love you.

The love I have comes from God! So don't let this love only be what you have seen. Get inside this love!!!! You deserve it too!

I love you so much. I love myself so much. I love my family so much. I love my friends so much. I love all the animals and all the air and everything that I can love. I have dreams of how much I loved / Love my Ex Husband too! And I can honestly say, I can Never go back to him. That time period has expired.

The earth is not nasty, it's the wicked ones that run buck wild that the naked eyes can't see. Them demons is nasty. Rebuke them demons around and anytime you ever need to rebuke them, repent and run to Daddy because you have left open the door for them some way some how. They got in, and Daddy will get them all out!

My Daddy will get you! Sometimes even I need to get down.

I hope you can understand me now. Cause before, I was not understood. I stopped caring ...so Damn if I'm understood. I didn't let it stop me from expressing myself, so I'm just still gone be HAPPY 😊

I will live until I'm 100 , so I'm not gone die soon.

But WHEN I do, I'm Amazed at my experience and still happy too.

I wish I can come back and tell you how it feels. Fear has no place in my word. The world created for me. From my Daddy.

Thank you Dadyy. Thank you All.

In Jesus Name , Amen.

On My Mommaaaaaaa

I Am Free.

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